Potential of A Memory
in the light of the sun through a window; sized medium, shutters green-slight
it slits on the top; reminds me of old cameras - yet what it records?
life inside or outside? Both? I am soaked by the frame. It's reference -
a sketch. I am tidying my short hair, happily cut for the occassion
of living alone. Less stress. More eloquence. Like a few short words.
Written on some wall. Engraved on some tree. I feel the sun on my face,
on my naked neck as I blow dry hair. I am getting better at this.
There is a still stubbornness of my locks. They wave and curl; they
are not straight. Cannot be straightened. My androgyne reifies in my retina
in the crown of keratin. I should be pleased. I am. Now. Then, the act of hair
wavy yet immaculate makes me feel bliss. Kiss of warmth of sun and an apparel
for my hair. I feel my blood rise with Moca. Another warmth. Walking on
Stone pavements with my tousled hair and packed bag with coffee.
Loving the feeling of boots clicking on the pebble. Loving the motion
of walking - just walking. Feeling the independence of legs, of locomotion
- I am a being of hyperactivity - my hair flows out even with a hairband
and my clothes are loose and casual. Too casual. Like no metrosexual touch
upon me. No sense of the feminine fashionista. I still need potential for that.
yet my hair, the window and the walking are all potentials
these radicals of being that I didn't think of always
when breathing winter's air back in my native land in my youth
crisp tongued with a promise only realising 16 years later
like some sixteenth birthday come after
I study the leaves. I think of the hours I may browse the net
Study the contents of my books. Wait for the shipment of texts
to arrive in packages. Another potential.
my movement gains a stride; slight equations that make me feel complete.